Fearne Cotton spoke about her depression in a candid interview for Angela Scanlon’s podcast, Thanks A Million.
The 39-year-old TV and radio presenter admitted that depression was part of her daily routine and that it ruined her ‘self-confidence at work’, which partly led her to leave her roles on Celebrity Juice and on BBC radio.
“[Depression] it’s a chapter I often talk about in my work, but not really because there’s so much of it that I’m still working on it and I still have a little cat, ”explained the mother of two. ‘A lot of my work came from that area of my life where I fell into a pretty big hole of depression and not much around me made sense.
Honestly: Fearne Cotton spoke about her depression in a candid interview for Angela Scanlon’s podcast, Thanks A Million
“In my experience, I felt very lonely and very alone. It was a long time before I even dared to use the word depression …
‘Now it’s the daily routine of my life, whether it’s friends who know I’m going to open up about it, or mostly in my work. Before that point, I would never have dared to talk about my mental health. I don’t think I even knew what it was.
‘Obviously I felt very lonely in this by default because I didn’t have these conversations. A few things I still deal with from that time. One of them is self-confidence, as I completely lost it when I didn’t have it at all, which really hindered me in my work and somewhat in my personal life …
“I’ve really lost my confidence in my professional life … I literally couldn’t put myself in the way I used to.”
Tax: The 39-year-old TV and radio presenter admitted that depression was part of her daily life and that it had shattered her “self-confidence”, leading her to leave her roles in Celebrity Juice [pictured] and on BBC radio
Fearne hosted BBC Radio 1 in the middle of the morning show from 2009-2015 and then sat behind Zoe Ball on Radio 2 before leaving. She was team captain at Celebrity Juice from 2008-2018.
“I still have this weird cat,” she continued. ‘At the end of the week I volunteered for Sunday breakfast, which is always the happiest experience, they feed you, give you alcohol at 10 o’clock, a very nice experience …
“[Before] I wouldn’t even think about it. I would feel completely calm, I would enjoy it, excited about what was going on. But I think because of the lack of self-confidence I lost during this period of depression, I still find it hard to recall being in those very revealing live TV channels where anyone could ever ask me.
‘And it’s like someone could say something, do anything. I used to like it, I kicked it, but now I feel like a soft peach, like I’m too exposed and I find it really scary. ‘
Open: Fearne cites his mental health as the reason for leaving these shows, but he can only say glowing things about the experiences when they are in them.
Fearne cites his mental health as the reason for leaving these shows, and he can only say glowing things about the experiences they otherwise have with them.
‘Honestly, when I was broadcasting Radio 1, it was just a joy. Towards the end, something may have been happening to me, but for most of my career on Radio 1, I found it easier, ”she said.
She added: “I left Radio 1 and would soon have a daughter Honey, another child. I didn’t have a job at all. None. No jobs. I didn’t have a safety net. I think I was kind of busy with that. And then all the other things really came later.
‘But it was worth the jump. I think a little break or a little silence is not a bad thing. And that’s where you start to potentially have ideas and think about life in a new way. ‘
Honest: “I’ve really lost my self-confidence in my working life … I literally couldn’t stand up like I used to,” she said.
On why she left the position of intern Zoe Ball, Fearne said: “I’ve been as Zoe Ball’s biggest fan since I was a teenager, so covering her show was also the biggest honor so far.
‘And I loved that, I did it for about a year and it was amazing. And then I had to talk to really cute Helen on Radio 2 and just say, “I didn’t sleep at all last night. And I’m doing the show for two weeks plus and I’m going to get sick.”
“You know, I just think you have to look at your health, which is the most important thing we have … I yelled to make a decision like to turn out because I didn’t want to not do that. But I think we have to sometimes to respect what our bodies tell us. ‘
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